Thank You For The Journey!
Last week, I had the opportunity to write an inspirational message about the past 13 years of my life. I’d like to share that message with you today – I hope you enjoy it!
Can you believe it? We’ve been on this amazing journey for 13 years! At first, I didn’t think I was going to make it. There were times when I thought I would lose my mind. But, You were always right there with me.
Do you remember how it all began? I was a 20 year old kid with a newborn baby girl. Determined not to be a statistic, I worked full time during the day and pursued my undergraduate degree with a full course load at night. I had just been promoted at work after only six months on the job and as the youngest one there. I was on track to finish my undergraduate degree on time with honors. I was invincible and on top of the world.
But, everything changed in an instant. On that cold January morning in 1999, I barely made it to work. My head was throbbing, my body was aching, and all I wanted to do was lie down. I sat in the driver’s seat almost paralyzed – I was unable to move. I finally mustered enough energy to crawl into the cramped backseat of my car and lay there for fou
None of the doctors could tell me what was going on. Specialist after specialist…one probing and intrusive test after another. Three months of non-stop, agonizing pain continued with no answers. And, do You remember how I kept asking – begging – for an answer.r hours until a co-worker could drive me home.
Finally, You sent me to a doctor who knew just by looking at me what was wrong – a pseudo tumor. A build up of spinal fluid pressure had caused me this tremendous pain in my head. One ten-minute procedure later, the pain was gone, never to return again. I was ecstatic. I leaped for joy and praised Your name! I was healed!
My rejoicing didn’t last long though. The prolonged build up of spinal fluid pressure had irreparably damaged my optic nerves. Now I was visually impaired and couldn’t see clearly more than six inches in front of my face. My whole world was fuzzy. “If only you’d come in sooner,” the doctor told me.
It wasn’t fair. You had known what was wrong with me all that time but it took three months before You revealed the answer and by that time it was too late to do anything about my damaged sight. I WAS MAD!!! I couldn’t believe You’d been so cruel? How dare You keep the answer from me all that time and then solve the problem suddenly only to saddle me with an even greater burden?
Do You remember that day when I was throwing the temper tantrum on my bedroom floor? Crying and begging then pouting and demanding. I wanted to know what was going on. Didn’t you know I had a baby that was depending on me to take care of her? Didn’t you know I had dreams of being something great? I remember asking You WHY. What did I ever do that was so wrong?
Then, I guess You finally got fed up with me. Your voice came to me in a load roar, “SHUT UP!” Startled, my tantrum came to an abrupt halt. My heart stood still and I dared not even breathe. Then You spoke to me again, this time in a calm, gentle, and slightly exasperated voice – “Just let Me handle it. Allow yourself to be weak and I’ll make you strong.”
I prayed for forgiveness and determined at that moment that I would trust in You completely. I stopped focusing on my limitation and began to appreciate the gift of Your protection and provision.
Even though my eyesight has been dimmed, You’ve given me perfect vision. You studied with me as I completed undergraduate business school and law school and even paid the way with full academic scholarships. You helped me pass the bar exam the first time while I was still the visually impaired single mother of a toddler. You held my hand as I stepped out on faith to follow my passions and pursue my life purpose to become a life coach, speaker, and author. I gave You my weakness and You made me stronger than ever!
I know I’ve tried Your patience over these last 13 years, but I just want to say, Thank You For The Journey. I know it’s far from being over – I’m definitely looking forward to the next 80 years! J
My challenge to you this week:
Write your own letter to God thanking Him for your journey!
All the Best,
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Benecia Ponder is a professional life coach and speaker. Her company, Benecia Ponder Coaching, is dedicated to helping you live life with greater levels of health, wealth, and happiness. If you want to find out how you can enjoy a more passionate, purposeful, and powerful life, visit www.beneciaponder.com.
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